The Balance of a Full Heart That Leads the Truth, the Light and the Way

So, I started writing the blog, I have tried to write about the full moon T Square for days now.  Only I can’t continue to write.  I couldn’t make it sound good and I cannot lie.

This can be a tough time for a lot of people.  The planets are making it hard to move forward for many.  You might feel as drained as I do.

So, instead I am going to ask you a question.

Do you consider yourself a good person?  A kind person?  A caring person?

Do you feel you are honestly evolving consciously?  Because if you do, than those questions have an answer already.  I don’t mean you give when the collection plate comes around.  I certainly don’t mean you tell the world some good deed you have done, or you know about chakras and maybe you meditate.
I certainly don’t mean you are parroting glib lines that get dribbled about as if by some magical means, the more you say happy, joy joy thoughts, you will wake up in another dimension where we no longer live in a world that is being choked to death.

Because If you are still believing that your success, means jetting around the planet using fossil fuels or living in a house larger than an old plantation home, than…you really cannot say you are an evolved person, because that is a bit remiss when it comes to actually caring about the planet, the heart of it all that we live on.  Don’t you hear the wind crying?  Don’t you see the sadness of the hungry?  Where were you when a Christ, was dragging His cross down the streets and being taunted by so many, while others fled who promised to never leave His side?

I know, you would rather read some spiel about how everything is going along as planned and we are all ascending.

If that is true, than you would care more about our mother.  What conscious person, can stand by or look away when someone is being murdered?  How is that conscious?
How much of the environment does it take to build your home, and keep you warm?

Are you really sentient?  This is a state of enlightenment?

Are we really evolving?  I could make up a story and tell you all the things I know you would rather hear.  I just can’t bring myself to lie to you.

Until we all stop lying about ‘ascending’ as if making a vision board filled with all the stuff we are going to buy, as we ‘evolve’ we are going to find ourselves in deeper and deeper trouble.

I have many times now, written this equation: ENERGY=MONEY=TIME=CURRENCY.
If you don’t have time, you can’t make money, if you don’t have money, you will find it harder to have the energy to work or even to play.  The currency in your home, is no different than the currency of money and one buys the other and both are not limitless.  Not in the current state on planet earth, in which we create energy to light our homes or fuel our cars.

I found out a long time ago, that the only way to ascend, to increase your conscious awareness to the infinite ONE, was by way of the heart.

And HEART, AS WE KNOW FOR THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN IN ANY CLASS I TEACH OR READ PREVIOUS POSTS, IS THE ANAGRAM FOR EARTH.

They are not separate, but ONE AND THE SAME.

So, you cannot disconnect from the one and pretend to truly be in the other, you see, that is the reason I began the post with the question, do you consider yourself a good person?  A kind person?  A caring person?  Could you argue that those attributes must come from the heart?  Gosh I hope not.  Only a sociopath would or could do that.

The heart of it all, is our very own mother earth. 

So, if you really and truly want to evolve, than you cannot avoid going deep into your being, depressing past the boundaries of pretense and words that attempt to portray an evolved being, and you go there.

I mean, you have to go down into the depths of your being, into the cave and do some honest soul searching, before you roll away that stone, make sure you let the old betraying thoughts and the garment of adornment slake off your body.  Let your naked soul rest itself on the cold stone, Jacob’s stone and watch the angels, ascending and descending up and down the spiral ladder, as you lay immobile and abandoned.  Abandoned by all those who said they would never leave your side, when the crowds clamored to touch that garment.  Cold and alone, with nothing more to offer, as the dove ascends out from you, and lifts only your true spirit, your essence up and away from the body, tired and no longer of service to humanity or to yourself, because it won’t move.

It is no longer enlivened as it once was, with that spirit that animates.

Eyes that will no longer open and see the beautiful earth, the greying sky as her sails fill with the cold winds and occult the warm, lemon sun.  Hands that won’t cool themselves in a clear running stream, while salmon dance and swim up river, to give birth, as all the dead things go with the flow down river.

You won’t part the sky with majestic mountains vaulting heavenward, jutting out of the mists swelling on the grasslands below, becoming purple with majesty and a presence that will stop your heart.

Because, this is what has happened and is happening to many of us now.  You see, I told you the world

crosses were difficult. 

The heavy-rough-hewn compass that points in all directions, north, south, east and west, and cries out: earth, air, fire and water…EL E MENT.  GD MIND.

Well, the cross has fallen.  We keep feeding all of the EL ements, POISON.

THEN WONDER WHY WE HAVE SO MANY POISONED MINDS?

Why so many people feel the need, to take a pill that stops them from feeling sad?

We are evolving but the sun is no longer kind to our skin.  The air is no longer perfumed with natural blossoms, the good earth, is not so sweet and the water is no longer drinkable.  But that wind, is surely still crying...MARY.

You said you care?  You see, we had the one fissure streak through the sky with the total solar eclipse last August, 2017.  We will have the other plank of that cross sail across the sky in April of 2024, making the fallen cross.  The USA will be drawn and quartered.

But who cares about little old signs, right?

We should have seen the one that said: ‘Turn Back Now’

Until you burst through your skin, the wine skin that can hold no new wine, and have been created a new…don’t roll away that stone.  The Gd's you think you see are only shadows on the wall of Plato's Cave.
We need those who have been kissed a thousand times by Mary, and drenched with her oil as she cleanses you with her tears and dries your new garment of Light with her long hair.  (Spiritual strength and wisdom).  We need the true servants who have evolved so many times by revolving around the sun so many lives, they know better now.

Those are the chosen ones, ready to enter into the garden and see the saviour.

If you dare to read further, continue on if you must

I am always low on Good Friday, or more appropriately, Sorrowful Friday, every year. I watched a piece on a rescued animal, that 'is rocking' (a sign of fear/regression in the limbic system) and that is what it took to break me into tears.
I am grateful for tears. They heal, and for me, they are literally the living waters of life.
But truly, what is the matter with us? Why do we hurt? What has happened that we don't just love each other, and instead have people who will seek out the weak to crush or take advantage? We are all humans, and animals are often more kind and loving than some 'humans' ever manage.
Yes, the full moon looms in Libra, swimming out of the depth of PIsces conjunct Chiron the wounded healer...the 'BLUE MOON'.
I am grateful to know so many lovely people, truly kind and caring people. How else could we survive a world that separates and discards? See a part?

On Sorrowful Friday, no matter what your faith or belief's, the sun/son set deep into the earth...the shadow was cast...the darkness has fallen.
Venus is at the end of her difficult journey through Aries, where she is most uncomfortable, and there is an awfully hard T-square between the Sun/Mercury in Aries to Mars/Saturn in Capricorn and the Moon in Libra.
And Mercury/Hermes is returning/retrograde to come back and meet the sun for the square...so communications?

Yes, Mercury went Retrograde on March22nd at 16* of Aries the Ram, his energy is pushing back and he may take or hinder finances at this time 

Mars conjuncts Saturn at 8* of Capricorn on April 2^nd.  This starts a new cycle for the pair and ends the old one.  That they start this cycle in this heavy T-Square with the ‘FULL BLUE MOON’ in Libra can make the going tough as we try to move forward.  I did say this year would be two steps forward and one step back, recall?

You may still not feel energy is so easy to come by, feeling tired or unmotivated, like an invisible weight has been cast upon the earth.  This can be truly heavy energy.  On April 27^th, Mars will meet up with Pluto/Hades at 21* of Capricorn, and while Saturn can be a damper and a strait jacket to energy, Pluto will be like lighting a fuse.  Ever see those machines that grind up big cars, or hunks of metal?  Yeah, that is what Pluto meeting up with Mars in Capricorn will be like, but since Mercury will have gone direct on April 15^th, with the New Moon at 26* of Aries conjunct a 28* Uranus, this will definitely have you feeling the need for speed as we frantically try to catch up with the world suddenly moving quickly forward around us.

Talk about out of the blue?  Uranus has that as a bi-line and he is finally moving out of Aries and well, this is not news I like to write, but it is what it is.

Uranus is going to enter Taurus on May 15^th at 11:16AM.

The truth is we are already feeling the undertow of this mighty force, on the world stage and especially in the stock markets going up and down.

Taurus rules the 2^nd house of ‘I Have’…values, and MONEY that you earn on a daily basis.

Uranus’s erratic charge into this house, will have the world spinning going one way and another and people may wonder just how to keep up with the fast transactions of up and down finances.  The market does not like this kind of volatility and it has been time for a reset for far too long.

I am still hoping we make it to 2020 when as I like to say we will all see ‘20/20’.

But Saturn will be making a direct hit/visit to Pluto then, and both in Capricorn seems like a real consolidation of power and money as the greedy 1% may make a final grab for all of it.

Unless we truly see people rise up TOGETHER, with the overarching theme of taking care of the planet, respecting women and children rather than subjugation of all that is Divinely Feminine, all I can say is we will be on a crazy train going the wrong way.

We are all right where we have allowed ourselves to go.

Pretending ‘not to see’ what was going on, as if magically, that would only make it bigger was quite the trick.  But it is certainly a nice way to pretend all is well, so you can feel better and have an excuse not to actually do anything about it.  Sit back, enjoy and pretend you are increasing your conscious awareness by saying pretty words and doing yoga.

That is not how it works down here.  There is nothing evolved about that type of thinking.  I want to write pretty lines that massage the ego, because I know that is what people want to hear.

At this very moment, I am toying with not even posting this at all.

Saturn/EL will go retrograde just after the new moon on April 18^th at 9* of Capricorn, that is almost a blessing since it gives us more time, before he makes his way over to Pluto and hangs out a bit too close and dampens the sense of freedom, we once knew, with even more restraints on liberty than before.  Does that banner still wave, over the land of the free?  And the home of the BRAVE?  How brave have you or are you willing to be, to save the truth?  To keep the promise available for the children who will need to live with the results of our actions or inactions? 
I have many times now, written this equation: ENERGY=MONEY=TIME=CURRENCY.

People have been living in the depths of the old-brain, the limbic system ever since 911.

That is fight or flight.  Now the debate rages on about guns.  A debate that is stoking up the Great Divide all over again.

The argument boils down to these fears in the limbic system: The fear of those who have guns vs the

fear of not having guns, the need to defend oneself.

The thing is, the conversation has to go a lot deeper than this because of the incendiary energy surrounding even the words.  The reality, is we should be discussing WHY CHILDREN ARE CHOOSING TO BRING A GUN TO SCHOOL AND KILL OTHER CHILDREN AND TEACHERS?

What has happened to us on this planet, that it is becoming more and more of an option to actually grab a gun and go out and use it against other humans? 
I started this talking about my sadness, watching a small monkey rocking back and forth, no mother anymore, no father.  They were shot for food. 

Food = energy

Calories = energy

Money buys food which gives us the energy to survive.

If you don’t have money, you cannot buy food.  It becomes harder to go out and work, or find motivation to work or look for work.  A vicious cycle.  And food will get a lot more expensive.  If you haven't started your own garden, I wouldn't wait any longer.
Children need their parents.  Not a game to watch or video's to play, but loving arms to hold them, a gentle voice to sooth them, a steady hand to guide them.

We should have stopped the machine long ago, when peddling pills to children became the 'reasonable' option, because that was the sign, that something has gone terribly wrong.  But we didn't, we kept lying to ourselves that those were exceptions...truth is, they are increasingly not.

As the Pluto/Saturn duo continues collecting the energy like a vacuum into fewer people, the drain on those at the bottom will create a huge, gaping hole.  People are already being tested, are you a compassionate person, or are you convincing yourself that you are ‘entitled’ and the majority of others are not?  What would Jesus do? 
Anyway...we all have to survive on this little blue ball.
The full moon in Libra, asked us if we were being fair?  It asked us, will we stand up to injustice?  It asked us, how are we partnering with those around us, with the food we eat, with the earth we walk upon?

What sort of balance are we creating in life?  If we are 'running around' than we need more calories, and that takes more from the planet.  I wonder when we will stop 'working out' to stay in shape, and make sure we burn more calories, which takes more food, time, money, currency.  I wonder when we will really, 'get it'?  Becoming conscious and partnering with the earth, each other and her children in balance and harmony.
The sun will rise on Sun Day. Till then, try and be a little kinder, could you?

Once you feel She has watered your garden with Her tears and kissed you awake, roll away the stone and come out into the garden, the earth is suffering the loss of your company.