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Sunday, January 10, 2016

Singing Over the Bones of EL Morte

A warning sound weakly makes its way  through the fog, pensive and crackling with a nervous energy rumbling up from the deep, dark halls of our past.
LaLuna finds her way back to her lover, our soul director on Saturn’s Day, January 9th at 8:30 PM EST.  They will embrace at 19* of Capricorn, both having recently embraced Hades at 15*, putting their hand to the wheel of the Cardinal Cross.
This is truly and literally life and death because it is ON THE CROSS.
EL MORTE…Golgotha…SKULL AND BONES
In Capricorn the Goat, they reconcile the past with one another, and with Mercury/Hermes having recently stationed retrograde at 00 Aquarius and on his way back to reconnect/reconnoiter after having begun his trek backwards through his own visitation through disposit of first Uranus in Aries (who is as bold as they come and reigniting the electrical charge now infusing the atmosphere/field) then he gathers his momentum and passion when he displaces Mars who was at 0* of Scorpio and forming that square to each other…made for some tense energy and probable communication melt-downs (which will be reviewed during this Rx) and flew over to Hermes/Pluto (and the Cardinal Cross reactivation) at 15* of Capricorn and to the ruler of Capricorn…Saturn/EL where things get all kinds of serious…as the LORD OF THE RINGS is wrestling with Poseidon he moves on then to sky God Jupiter/Zeus who was at 23* of Virgo…he wants the DETAILS and having consulted with the rest of the gods…Mercury/Hermes returned to himself in Aquarius where we are recalibrated according to our own progress.
Mercury is now at 29* of Capricorn in this new moon.  To say things have gotten serious and demand attention, is an understatement.  This very Cardinal New Moon, wants ACTION, but it wants that action to be taken with very serious consideration, and so as Hermes continues his flashback, he will bubble up all that plutonian energy wanting to come to terms with the stark reality…and oh if it were only that simple.
You see, Neptune is lording over this New Moon as she swims in her PIscean Sea at 7* she forms a lovely trine to Mars at 3* of Scorpio, who wants to get to truth behind the scenes and is willing to go into the muckity muck where all that ugly truth has been hiding…Neptune/Poseidon bursts open a symphony so beautiful it tugs at the very depths of our being and haunts us down the halls, her water gushing and pushing us only to hit the wall of Saturn/EL…whose leaden RINGS wake us up over and over each time we hit his shores he sternly reminds us…"your dreams ARE NO THING WITHOUT MY REALITY and IN MY TIME."
Such might have been a similar energy as the Titanic was going down. On the deck the musicians played stoically and their music drifting into the cold-night sky as some go down, some find frozen safety among the screams of the dying and the anguished cries from some of the people watching their husbands, children, wives, mothers, fathers, grandparents, slink down into the depths of a frozen and unforgiving abyss.
You may not like this message but I am just a messenger.
Is there a silver lining in this?  Yes, of course!  Look at this…it is Neptune animating the animus and the anima on a very big screen.  Showing us who we are, whether we like it or not and everything is just not shiny and bright or peace and love with instant nirvana waiting to take us into eternal bliss.
You see, the gods are up there talking about all of this too, they are watching us… (Yes, they see you when you are sleeping and they know when you’re awake…they know if you’ve been bad of good, so be good…for HEAVEN’S SAKE.)
Jupiter/Zeus is Rx with the head of the Dragon so the warmth and optimism may be a bit harder to come by, but if we look (pray and take affirmative action toward good and benevolent conditions, thoughts and actions) we will see that he is in full support in a trine to the sun, moon and Pluto.
So, though you may feel alone or abandoned by the god’s at this time in some way, know that we are not…not even for one single second, abandoned.
Neptune/Poseidon…ruler of the mighty seas…softens everything.
Imagine you are walking along the sea shore, the sun is dazzlingly brilliant in his jealous sky as you look down and see the bright colours making their way through the clear-glistening waters below you of millions of rocks, pebbles, glass and shell, so soft under your feet…because they have been softened…through water/Neptune/Poseidon and what?  Time
Do you know who rules time?  Saturn/EL the Lord of the Rings.
Saturn/EL/Lord of the Rings/Cronos does his very best to discipline us back into our true core being.  He demands of us, what we have to offer or to exhume (Pluto) and he will accept nothing less, than our very best.  So…he will out wait you…
Now, as you realize these factors, and think of the EL-e-MENTS involved, you see that universal MATT-ER has a brilliance we can only begin to FATHOM.
Residuals are coming in…those of the investment kind whether they be financially, emotionally, or physically, what we have invested in, is now paying us in dividends or taking back what is rightfully his.
All of this, is demanding action that will start up in a fury this winter-spring and be somewhat halted again this early spring when Saturn/EL goes Rx on March 26th at 16* of Sagittarius, while Jupiter/Zeus is still Rx from Jan 9th at 23* of Virgo.
It is truly in the Details, no matter how much Neptune tries to obfuscate, remember those details MATT er.
This is our dreams, our hopes, and our wishes…all of that ‘new age talk’ (You are creating what you are thinking, so don’t think about bad things)…against the cold reality of Saturn, all of that melts away into simple illusions.
I can pray for a cup of tea…or I can get up and make one, which do you think will happen first in this reality of 3 and 4D?
There is truth to the energy of thought and certainly WORD or LOGOS, which takes the thought and speaks it into this world…but that becomes NO THING…if it does not MATT er.  And everything on earth, is triggered with the senses.  In order to ANIMATE the energy…we must infuse it with our action and in order for that to make it over the finish line, it must have PASSION.  THAT WHICH YOU ARE WILLING TO DIE FOR, OR TO LITERALLY SUFFER FOR. 
One way to look at this, is to consider some past posts on children.  A HEALTHY parent, loves their child so much, they are willing to suffer or die for that child in most cases.
That is PATHOS.  So, when you are asked, if you are LIVING YOUR PASSION, every day you go to work, to bring home the bacon or the rice and beans as the case may be, you are living YOUR PASSION, YOU ARE SUFFERING FOR WHAT YOU TRULY LOVE.
Now, if you are suffering under a financial strain, because you bought the ILLUSION OF WHAT MATTERS MOST then that ILLUSION may become bigger under this strain, without the reckoning of Saturn/EL and Virgo’s need for EXACT DETAILS because now that the nodes are floating in the Virgo/PIsces axis, this will be a running theme.
So, during this exchange, this clashing of Saturn/EL and Neptune/Poseidon, our very dreams are over cast with the somber reality of Saturn…in Sag…it is easy enough to use simple words that never gather the steam of truth and action, but they quickly melt like ice on a hot-black tar road under the summer's noon-day sun.
Sagittarius Saturn is not as playful as Sag likes to be, he is certainly not as free as this centaur likes and he is questioning HUMANITY as a global turning world struggles under the heavy weight Pluto in Saturn’s domain of Capricorn squaring off with Uranus, stunted and angry from having all of his technical breakthrough’s stifled is now bringing.
We want all the comforts and bliss a new world promises, but we have not come to terms with the cold and harsh reality of living in a finite world, with very real laws that are UNIVERSAL.
If you had all the money in the world, what would you do?
For most, it has become to build bigger, more, taller, buy more and more and more…and it is easy enough to say…’I would never’ but without having lived that life and proven to yourself that you in fact, would live within what YOU NEED AND WHAT NEED ALONE (I am not in that category, I try, but I live in this world too, and I like things, pretty things, and don’t I need a sun room?, lol) so you see, even if we had all the RESOURCES (Virgo) at our fingertips, 7 billion people would all want to buy big homes, cars, etc.
WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT WOULD DO TO THE EARTH?
She only has so many trees.
So much clean water.
So much clean air.
She needs a clean and healthy earth/mantle to nourish us, feed our plants, trees, etc.…so when all that fancy spiritual talk leads into ‘all the stuff you can have if you only know the secret’…this is AN ILLUSION.
Atonement…becoming ONE…at one ment…means you KNOW HOW HEALTHY THE BODY WITHIN THE BODY IS, BECAUSE YOU ARE ONE.
You are aligned with, not against the body.  (The same as a cancer cell, which is aligned against...to attack the body's healthy cells.)
Are you aligned with the body that is our host, our ship carrying us hundreds of thousands of miles an hour through space along with our heavenly guides and our central ambassador the sun…do you not think they know they very hair on our heads?
Of course prayer works, but if you cut your leg open, would you pray for it to heal or would you go to the hospital?  So much for just talking to your leg to heal or simply ignoring it so it won’t get any bigger, right?
This is called a REALITY CHECK, this is Saturn/EL…don’t play with him…he is serious and he will make you pay quicker than the lawyer on TV who says he will.
He is discipline… (Saturn/EL the LORD OF THE RINGS), so you can either learn to discipline and control yourself, or HE, using the state, will come and do that for you.
Now, on the world stage, a real tinder-box has been cooked up with a daisy chain running all over the planet, just ready and waiting for that one inflammatory incident to light the whole thing up.
We simply MUST LEARN TO PARSE THROUGH COMPLEX SCREENS OF INFORMATION while keeping a very simple reference point of truth partnered with wisdom and grace.
We have to listen to each word someone is saying, without dismissing them outright, either by party affiliation or what we may perceive as not aligned with our political thoughts or perhaps we are being told by the media that they are crazy or unelectable in some way?
They all have SOME TRUTH THAT THEY DIVULGE amidst that which is obfuscating reality just enough for our own discernment and evolutionary needs.  Yes, our needs.
We cannot have FREE ENERGY TECHNOLOGY without THE SAME SPIRITUAL REVOLUTION IN THOUGHT.  Saturn is not going to let that happen, it is his job, as far as he is concerned, he is still Gaia’s protector.  Somebody has to play the tough guy in all of this.  When Gaia was unhappy so many of her children had been locked up in Tartaros, she asked the 12 Titans for a volunteer to help them escape. Only Cronos (Saturn) was brave enough. Gaia gave him an adamantine sickle with which to castrate his father (Uranus/Ouranos the original sky god). Saturn/Cronos took up the task and was forever after shown with his sickle.
These planets are known for ‘cutting away’, Saturn/Cronos with his sickle, Mars as a ruler of metal instruments and surgery and Uranus in the blink of an eye, with shock-therapy.  Pluto/Hades as ruler of death and transformation will take you into his lair and transform you into a wholly new being.  Neptune will dissolve you without you even realizing it until it is much too late, so subtle and yet equally capable of turbulence that will kill you with one blow.  She will take you down into unfathomable depths, and if you are cognizant enough and SEEKING, you will SEA that bright shiny glint of a brass handle, grab hold and pull out your treasure chest buried long ago…
These Titans, are in a fierce battle now…Uranus/Pluto square which began back in their conjunction in Virgo in 1964.  The 7 exact squares which began in 2012 came almost 50 years later, as the second stage of this roughly 200 year cycle.  This is how big this is right now…along with this, we have Saturn/Neptune cycle in play as they just formed another square in a synod that began with their exact conjunction on  March 3, 1989 at  11°53΄ of Capricorn.  So we see major events taking place on the world stage, and these events are born in the conjunction, the same as we start a new cycle with every new moon.
Saturn wants to take Neptune’s idealism, her art and visions and form concrete Matt er as he ANCH-ors into reality her dreaming mind so fertile in the gestation of deep waters.  Neptune/Poseidon wants to smooth out the rough surface of Saturn’s cold gaze, together they soften, Water + Time.
And this cycle, kicked off with the Saturn/Uranus opposition that began, November 2, 2008.
This new moon at 19* of Capricorn, is tapping back into the Saturn/Neptune conjunction and triggering the whole Uranus/Pluto square and all Cardinal Points from the Cross are activated again. 
Some of you may not think the tears from seemingly ‘out of nowhere’ will ever end, sadness that was hiding under the surface will spill over Saturn’s walls of restraint and disappear just as quickly as a smile of comprehension comes across your lips, realizing something deep has just been released, perhaps one of Neptune’s hooks from back in that conjunction or even long before, because the square will tear out those concepts that have no basis in the reality of Saturn’s world, and sorry, but this is the LAW.
Jupiter/Zeus at 23* Virgo may have just gone retrograde, but he is still forming a nice supporting trine to the sun, mercury, moon and Pluto, and he will bring you back to that insight you lost, if you just look into the details, you are sure to uncover some jovial place along with Mercury Rx, that should help to lift the ominous weight of Pluto and the change and transformation he will exact and which we will see unwind in the following decade, after we negotiate the storms that are wreaking havoc on us today.
In Capricorn the Goat, we are at the top of the mountain looking down and into the past.  At the end of the Taurus decanate, we are again asked to wonder what we have…no really…what do you really own on this planet?  What have you sacrificed to obtain all that you have and do you consider that success?
What do you value?  We put energy into that which we value...and how much energy do you have, that you are willing to trade time together with family or friends in exchange for something you value more, what is that?  How does it feel on the inside when you consider this value exchange?
Are you ready for your old age?  Social Security is surely going to be a major theme this month and the coming year…ominous and chilling tales of our future will be trotted out, if we don’t start ‘cutting back’ or out altogether (If Saturn has his way).
Mars at 3* of Scorpio forming a lovely trine to Neptune/Poseidon at 7* of Scorpio will help us to put some action and energy into our dreams and spiritual beliefs pursuits, and with Venus at 12* under the leaden cloak of Saturn/EL at 13 of Sagittarius, you can put energy into planning vacations or the idyllic surroundings of your retirement place, but it will be a topic of conversation, as


Mercury/Hermes aims to review all plans now.

This is the moon you plan out the year with, light your candle, set your intentions and add all the music and prayers to and relatively low-lit and serious occasion.  Sing over the bones…
1/25/16 Mercury/Hermes will station direct on January 25th at 14* Capricorn
2/9/16 Transiting Saturn opposes his natal position of 14* Gemini when he reaches the 14* point of Sag. (Where he was on 9/11)
3/9/16 Saturn goes Rx on March 9th at 16* of Sagittarius and will station direct on August 12th at 9* of Sagittarius.
5/9/16 Jupiter will station direct on May 9th at 23* of Virgo
Mars Rx's on April 17th at 8* of Sagittarius and stations direct on June 29th at 23* of Scorpio.
8/12/16 Sagittarius and will station direct on August 12th at 9* of Sagittarius.
8/24/16 August 24th, Mars and Saturn will conjunct at 9* of Sagittarius.

Sunday, February 8, 2015

The Murder of the Muse

Everyone is born, after the mother ‘crowns’…that is to say, the head of the newborn, begins to make its entry into the world and literally is crowned by the mothers vaginal opening.  This comes after a child may pass through ‘the ring of fire’ which comes as the baby's head pushes on the perineum, and this sometimes causes a tingling or burning sensation, this is often referred to as the "ring of fire".  (Here is where you first fall into ‘the ring of fire, the ring of fire’….)
So, every child (born head first at least) is crowned…what lies underneath that crown, is a spiritual being, who will learn how to become human, and share the essence of that spirit in this world.  This is also Aries, the head of the chart, and where Uranus is now travelling.  This is all about the birth of our unique gift.
We celebrate this human, we see the light that emanates from the eyes, as this new child looks out in wonder at the strange new world.  Inside of this new being, is a bright shiny light, complete with its own guiding muse (if one has a female muse), or guardian angel and if it is a male child than he has ‘genius’.  Either way, it is all the same.
That unique being, is here to supply the world, with the light of the Divine, through the muse or genius.  That genius is the spark of difference, that unique aspect that only this child can bring.  The problem, is we have lost our way, we have lost our way and the true way to ‘divine the truth’ of our being.  We are to divine that soul spark, and give that to the world, as we came here to give.

We celebrate the mundane, the sameness, instead of the unearthing of the genius. Our herd mentality, asks us to
maintain a low profile, in order to remain safe, within the protective circle of the herd.  Along the way, we evolved past the point of herd protection, and some individuals, listening to their muse, wondered off that path and out of the tribe, to show us new thoughts, new ways and the road less traveled.  They see the Emperor without clothes, the corporations that are corrupt and the deception that steals the natural laws of a sovereign people.
In our archaic past, that lingers on in our reptilian brain, we knew that when one member was ‘picked off’ when they left the safety of the circle, it was a threat to the survival of the entire tribe, that was now dwindling in numbers.  So that threat is old, and deep-seated and real, but it is just not conscious…for all.
Most, have conformed to the rigors of society, and this becomes a badge of honour.  In its course, the genius is tamped down, and attacked, ridiculed, excoriated for being…’different’.  This in turn, can cause other tribal members to do the same.  In that process, the very flow from the Divine, the Holy Spiritual Fire, is also tamped down and suffocated.  The entire tribe and village loses the magic that makes it thrive and remain healthy.
I have experienced this first hand.  I have tried to understand it all, thus it has brought me to follow many roads, clues along the way to create my own path.  I have done better and worse with this, because the path to individuation is fraught with perils.  (The story of Homer)
Once the individual has somehow managed to harness that genius/muse, and believe in, nurture that genius out of hiding under the covers of our humanness, he may be celebrated, as that light pours forth, we see G-d.
But, if one who is uncovering genius does so amongst those who have not learned of their own spiritual fountain, and know how to pour forth, than it becomes a threat, an alarm goes off in the others who are ’too familiar’ (especially if you break yourself down to appear as a ‘peer’, standing next to them, and they now only feel the nagging truth of their own neglect.  That they have in fact, ‘committed suicide’.  It is also a link that tingles the limbic system just enough to remind them of the threat that a single tribesman may pose to the group, that of being picked off by the beast outside of the safety of the tribe, diminishing the tribes numbers and so, threatening the survival of the remaining members.  Now, if you have not found success, or have found the lofty and seldom won position of honour in this world, (or worse, the illusion people now believe is success, which is the attaining of ‘things’…that which turns to dust, since we came to give and not to get, as Michael Meade so brilliantly states.)  So, now not only can you be a threat that is not made conscious, you become a warning…that if this is what harnessing their gift means, they want no part of that kind of pain, that doesn't seem to bring the reward that they are convinced must come as a measure of success.  Pathos—suffering, disease, feeling, passion {-path, patho-, -pathy} as the root of passion…is the willingness to suffer for one’s gift.
To this end, we see our society, struggling in the loss of the true font of knowledge, the bliss from the cup of life, and the decay and collapse begins to rage like a mad virus, once again in its opposite intention and imbalance, threatening the survival of the tribe.
What we see instead, is a narcissistic attempt to find the lost tribe, the lost soul, the chord that connects us and feeds us health and inspiration, the kind of inspiration that saves the tribe.
(I will return to you like a Lion/Fire…the second birth of the soul/muse/genie/genius into this world)
So, a damaged and sickly type emerges in our collective, a false sense of ‘specialness we now call entitlement’.
It is hardly the pure spirit, the muse that enlightens, enlivens and informs us…it becomes the sickly creature who wants to be viewed as special, without having found that inner light at all.  They are corrupted, without the guiding past, and the concept of service.


We also see, an increase in suicides, because these souls, are only committing the very act the spirit knows, is already trampling down the vintage where the grapes of wrath are stored.

Now, seeing the travesty in this world, Indeed, having the eyes to see what is happening, that goes against humankind or this sweet earth, is hardly taking away from your inner process or progress; rather it is concurrent.
One cannot truly evolve which comes with vision and seeing the layers of the world fall down as they do around the excavation of your own truth and gifts, and not participate in its process.  Because you become so vital, that spark of being on fire, illuminates both the inner and the outer worlds. 
One of the things that also goes on, is the illusion that must be so, to cull those who are easily seduced into the superficial, catching them in the great net, using the hooks so evident on Neptune’s symbol, just like a fish ‘hook’, and they pull out those who cannot swim upstream to give birth to their own muse/genius.  It is as if the rock is skipping on the top of the water in ‘false positivity’ and never allowing the individual to go down, plumb the depths of their being and retrieve that black pearl, that death, that Plutonian power.  It is Gandolph, powering his great staff down and saying ‘you shall not pass’…though the Balrog’s fiery whip reaches back up with its magically long extension and grabbing Gandolph the wizard, and taking him down into the abyss.  He goes down with the Balrog and he captures his own dark heart, because he faces himself in the fires, that then forge him even stronger, to hold the power of the truth, the light and the way.  He emerges even more omnipotent, but not until he goes down and rescues that dark self.  If you don’t face and rescue the daemona, Greek for genius, it becomes a dark power over you.  It is the shadow that haunts you under the surface, and you never truly know your own power.
It is the black Madonna, who in all her natural beauty, is not always sunny and warm, she might be cloudy and grey or storm and start to rainin’.  But in Her all, she is stunning, glorious and life-giving and resplendent.
You must give birth to this spiritual essence, through the burning ring of fire, the mouth of the dragon.  It will purify you in
the process, and the fires of this must be hot enough to forge so strong a steel, that it can hold, handle and manage this kind of heat and light.  We are walking around on fire, and we are now being seduced into a mirage that pretends that the only form of spiritual truth, is of the sticky sweet positive version, that completely negates the very beast one must face, in order to become a whole, spiritual incarnation of the divine in a human form. 



We are now told to ‘focus on the positive’…but this is creating an imbalance in the entire society with a large shadow looming and lurking, licking at our psyche’s and looming in our minds, it is manifesting in polarity’s and schism’s and the only people brave enough to step up to the plate to try and do something about this, to manage the ‘evil’ by necessity must be a necessary evil then.
This last Pluto/Hades square to Uranus, will be at 15* of Capricorn and Aries, respectively on March 17th.  Pluto as Hades, the God of this underworld we must traverse to rescue our soul, our spark and our gift, is Balrog, and the gift is Uranus, the special genii, or genius, muse that we are being forced to acknowledge through these series of the magic 7 SEVEN squares that started on June 24th. 2012 at 8* of those signs. Those squares have backed us into that 90* angle/corner, confronting our dark mother/matters/material world, the fiery inferno that may have you crippled and afraid to walk through that fire and give birth to your soul.  We are giving birth to the world soul.  You build using the master mason’s tool of the square. 
So, for those who have been cursed and blessed with exact degrees of those cardinal signs, all the more reason to prepare for your final turn and revealing into this world.  This world will wrench and groan under the strain of our neglect, and are abandonment of the dark mother.  It is our duty, our very calling to encompass the entire circle, finding our unique and individual gifts now, and come out of the belly of the beast, just as Jonah and so many others.
We have two more blood moons to go through in this birth canal, and Saturn/EL Lord of the rings, master mason, the SA-turner of worlds and Chronos master of time, forger of gravity to slow down our spirit, entering the kingdom of this earth, this heart planet.  He has been travelling in Scorpio through most of this square, and now he is pushing that birth matter through and into Sagittarius, but even this is too much to happen all at once, so he will retrograde back starting three days before the last square of Hades and Uranus, on March 14th. At 4* of Sagittarius, and continue to pull back that

curtain/hymen reentering Scorpio (ruled by Pluto/Hades) on June 15th. Travelling back to 28* until stationing direct again on August 2nd.  He will not re-enter Sagittarius again until September 18th.

So, all of the fixed signs have been significantly flattened, moved or forced to confront the deep truths that are occulted in this syrupy falsehood of going with the flow, or that we are always right where we need to be, without the deeper truth of choices having consequences and this culls the big swimmers from the rest of the school, only the Salmon who have the strength and have matured will make it upstream to give birth to their young, their gift and that divine fire.
We simply must stop this infantile version of ignoring (as I always say, ignorance holds the word ignore within it)  the powerful truth we see around us, give birth to something fiercely desirous to save us, and that is the golden egg of our divine gifts.  It will pour out of the dragon’s mouth, which will be in Libra at 10*.  We must forge new relationships and make peace with our dark selves, our shadow side.
And this alchemic birth, is being mid-wived[GS1]  by Mary Magdalene energy.  There are many aspects of the goddess, but we are all being exposed to the dark misdirection of that energy and the manifestation, however this came about, of a very deranged version of this in the form of the group calling itself ISIS, on the world stage.
There are so many superficial aspects that are occluding the true artist, the true gifts so desperately needed now, all the way into computerized versions of the voice in so many singers who now use ‘auto tune’.  We don’t need the synthetic, but the deeper real feminine.  She is not just the 12 year old girl with fake.. er…everything being thrust at us, looking much like a young boy with purchased body parts.  No, she is lustful and vengeful and rich and deep and full of the world she fiercely gives birth to over and over and she risks her life every time to do so.
We can no more ignore the truth than a child who covers their ‘eyes’ with their hands, and thinks they have really disappeared. 
So now, we are double cursed in this very hard pass, with a superficial version of spirituality masquerading as a whole truth, robbing us all of the need to be fully empowered, to instead display what is nothing less than a Stepford Wife….a computerized model void of soul and void of the matter, mother our star dust animates.
When Saturn/El the Lord of the Rings, the eye of Saurin moves out of Scorpio finally and back into Sagittarius, we must be fully armed with the truth of our beings, strong enough as women to be fully empowered for a fully evolved male.
This is the tantra of our own being, the rising of the divine mother/wife to Her divine complement as the divine masculine, and this alchemic chamber will give birth at this time, to some very wizened and ready souls who have done the work in the belly of the beast, to emerge through the painful process with gift in hand, the treasure and reward of the journey of the hero.
WHAT DID YOU COME HERE TO DO?
It isn’t to make a copy of someone else who has found their passion, and gone through the dark mother to bring that gift out.  If that is so, you have not found that which is uniquely you, and that is suicide.
Haven’t we had enough death already?  Are you ready for true life?
Then spend these last few weeks going into the belly of the beast, and come back out victorious, ready to share, to give the gift you came here to ignite the world with.  True genius that finds itself, ignites that in others.
Are you ready to set the world on fire?  I AM.  I AM THAT I AM.
Suffer or die.
Jesus said, "If you bring forth what is within you, what you have will save you. If you do not have that within you, what you do not have within you [will] kill you.  From the Gospel of Thomas.

"Prometheus steals fire from the God’s, are you ready to steal the fire in your belly?

"One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light," said Jung, "but by making the darkness conscious."